º•º•I wish I wrote the way I thoughtº•º•

"I wish I wrote the way
I thought;
Obsessively,
Incessantly,
With maddening hunger
I'd write to the point of suffocation.
I'd write myself into the
nervous breakdown.
Menuscripts like spiralling out
Like tentacles into abysmal
Nothing.
And I'd write about you
a lot more
Than I should."